Saturday, January 9, 2010

My weaknesses. As it seems.

The year of 2009 has been the worse of my life, so far at least. I expressed myself to a friend, just for the sake of expressing; never thought it would cause that person to have pity on me.

My classmates dislike me, or hate me for that matter, cuz im not productive. None wants me in their group. I am rejected. Now the last thing i need right now is pity. Maybe i've been having self pity for the past, 5 months?

It's so hard to move on, it's not as easy as it sounds, i'm scared and afraid. It's not that easy when people say you cant make anymore mistakes. Humans dont make mistakes on purpose. It is a mistake. I'm still in this hole. And no matter how much tear dries up, its not gonna change anything. Some people say they got my back. I dont feel supported at all. I need people who believe in me and would stand by for me. Throughout 2009, all i've dealt with was loneliness, and with loneliness, dealing with the things i've had to deal with.


Sulk, how sad.
The emo boy